- Drugs
- Faith
At age six I started drinking beer with my dad and by eight I started smoking cigarettes. By age eleven, I smoked my first joint. And I moved very quickly to other drugs in the 6th grade. I was selling acid in sixth grade, and in seventh grade I tried heroin. I am very happy I didn’t even like the high or I don’t know what could have happened. I broke into my first house by then and after a short time I was locked in a juvenile detention center before high school.
My youth was a mess and it stayed that way until eight years ago when I got clean. That’s when things changed for me. My whole life had been one bad day after another– especially since the time I got mixed up with meth. After being on meth less than six months, I committed my first armed robbery. It took hold of me and totally took over everything I did. Until I got clean everything I did, everyone I knew, from sun rise until I crashed out from exhaustion was about this drug.
I tried millions of times to quit and never lasted longer than my next score of cash. It was a horrible existence and I was a horrible person too when I got high. I used women for degradable sex and that was all women were for. I left my child sitting in the car while I slept because I’d been up for weeks at a time.
I don’t like to look back at myself when I was addicted to meth. But as many times as I tried to quit my mother said a prayer for me. It was almost a year after she passed away from cancer that I found a way. And the way was God. As soon as I let God guide me, I’ve been clean. Lucky for me to that He took my sex drive also because I don’t know if I could have stayed clean. I was a mess and now I’m whole again.
My wife and kids left me but when God was putting me back together He also put my family back together. I’m amazed by all the mountains God moved out of my life. And in awe of the life He gave me. I’ve been blessed with more than ever and my gratitude for God is overwhelming.